Argghhh...

This dvd is the devil! If I don't die, I'll be updating super soon. :)

I loooove Skinny Cow stuff. Does anyone not? It doesn't taste like it's any better for you than the other stuff. In fact they're so good that my kids and I fight over who gets the last mini fudge pop. I bought them their own popsicles but no, they want the ones with the cow.

Tonight I had a taco salad...honestly, things like that are not hard for me at all, I'd much rather have my taco stuff on lettuce than in a shell. I reloaded on SmartWater today...I'm really getting into drinking water like I'm supposed to. Yay, me!

I kind of pulled an all nighter last night with the load of homework and studying I had to do...but I feel good about the tests I took, my research paper came our pretty well, and now I'm just exhausted. I only got about 4 hours of sleep last night and I have heard that 4 is the worst number of hours to get. Actually, an ex boyfriend told me that. He read somewhere that even 3 hours is better than 4..there is something about that 4th hour...it's probably the hour where you hit your REM stage, and if you wake up during that, you are completely unsatisfied sleep-wise.
Luckily I have no classes tomorrow until night-time...so I can sleep in an hour later and spend my day cleaning, getting a good workout in and studying for my biology test.

I also have decided to delete all of my online "dating profiles". Not that I had hundreds of them but I have a few, and I just have no desire to date anyone right now. I really just want to focus on me...getting my weight under control, getting thru school, and hanging with my little boys. I don't have time or energy for any distractions like guys. Because they've only caused trouble for me so far, lol.

Well, Jillian is calling my name, willing me to come partake in some 30 DS....so here I go. :)

These are soo yummy. I bought some today. I got the flavor to the left, which is berry blend or mixed fruit, and I also got a pineapple, mango and strawberry flavor. You just throw it in the blender and add some milk...presto! I actually added a little fresh squeezed orange juice to it...made it better in my opinion.

Been pretty good today, had a cup of Special K for breakfast with some skim milk, a BLT for lunch, and my smoothie. And lots of SmartWater...I love that stuff.

I don't have any dinner plans, but I'm thinking of just having a WW meal...my kids want hotdogs, so I suppose they'll have their thing and I'll have mine.
I did the toning tables today after I tanned...there's nothing better than being on a machine that makes you do sit-ups! I always have loved doing them but eventually it just got a little difficult...So I'm really liking the tables. They have some that work your butt too, but I steer clear of those..I have no butt anyways, sadly.

I'm thinking giving Jillian another go tonight, after watching Biggest Loser of course. Talk about motivation to work out! Tuesdays are pretty good workout nights for me, lol.

I won't be able to spend as much time on it as I'd like though... I have a research paper to finish and a test to study for. I love it when my teachers concoct a conspiracy theory and make all this stuff due on the same day. Gotta love it! :)

I'll leave with my newly created mini goal...which is to drop 10 pounds by May 1. Fingers crossed!

Hello, world!

This is not my first blog, but it is my first weight loss blog. I have been an overweight person since I was a little kid. After I had my kids it really went downhill. Then throw a divorce on top of that...i yi yi.

I've never really been a yo-yo dieter...more like a person who gets really inspired and makes big plans and lasts about a week before eating fried chicken or procrastinating exercise. The only thing I can say I actually spent money on and stuck with was phentermine...yes it did work, and it worked fast. But, side effects were a bit scary, it got kind of expensive, and if you dared to stop taking them you'd better be prepared to gain a large portion of your weight back. So...bummer.

Anyway, I've gotten really tired of making promises to myself, making goals I never reached, etc., only to fail because...well, I basically failed because I got lazy.
But lately I've been toying with it all over and over, thinking long and hard about it all...and a lot of things have been helping me come to the conclusion that I really will do it this time.

1. I've watched Dr. Phil, Dr. Oz, and Oprah dumping buckets of animal fat on tables to show people the amount of excess fat they were carrying around. Gross. But effective.

2. I'm 26. 4 years away from 30. I'm not getting any younger, and I don't want to have all these health problems that come with being overweight. I can't do that to my kids...I'm all they have, and I need to make sure I'm healthy enough to be around as long as possible.

3. I swear I'm a skinny person trapped in a fat person's body. Sometimes I think I feel the skinny me knocking on my insides saying, "hellooooo? Let me out, fat ass!" She's so hateful.

4. When I graduate college, I don't wanna be the overweight girl huffing and puffing around a hospital..always out of breath and junk. That would suck.

So there you have it, my first blog post...yayyy!

Do I have a plan? Not today. I'm meeting with a nutritionist tomorrow to assess the eating portion (no pun intended).
Exercise...well I've been working out for a couple weeks now on toning tables and a horrible monster called the Treadclimber. I swear it's the devil and we may need to perform an exorcism.
And I have Wii Fit Plus which I love, and my kids are very entertained by watching themselves throw hula hoops to me and to see my mii jogging along with a little puppy.

Also, I invested in Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred. Level 1 kicked my butt...she turned my calves into rubber and we haven't been on speaking terms since. I should probably pull her out though...I don't want to be the kind of person that holds grudges. (I forgive you, Jillian.)

That being said, I'm off for a good night's sleep.

Until next time!
xoxo